it all started with cleaning the kitchen, surely you'd think my day could only get better from there. you'd be completely mistaken.
i can't even remember all of the stupid things that happened. i crashed the stupid car. i hate that car. the woman i ran into made me cry but then i think she felt kind of bad and was nice, she touched my arm in some kind of awkward "should i hug you?" kind of way. the answer is no, don't hug me. geeze.
i emailed dad asking if i could sell the dumb stupid car because it's actually impossible for me to drive it and he wrote back and made me cry because he said i only talk to him when i want something which was a complete slap in the face. i've spent the last decade of my life trying to spend time with him and kept having to tell myself he was only stressed out because he was trying to do what's best for the family or whatever and that he did care about me more than his stupid money. before he left the stupid country i asked him if we could go get some ice cream and he made out like i was using him to get ice cream and why didn't i go get my own ice cream. if i wanted fucking ice cream i'd buy my own damn ice cream, i wanted to SPEND TIME WITH MY FATHER. but he still comes out with shit like "It is a pity I only hear from you when you want something." oh sorry, i must be the one that only calls when i want some stupid financial documents checked then hangs up without a "have a nice day" or "sorry for waking you up." it's a pity i only hear from him when he wants something, it realllllly is.
helen isn't going to america on exchange anymore, so i don't know if i will. i don't really want to be alone in another country for that long. i mean i know i'd make friends and probably have a decent time but i have friends and a decent time here. i might just go on a post-uni holiday instead.
i'm surprised i made it to uni, although kind of glad i did because apparently i was supposed to be in a group from like three weeks ago, i got lumped in with some mature age student and two international students, saving grace was a friend from my tute who also somehow neglected to find a group. i ate lots of shit because i was feeling down so now i actually feel sick. like Ughusghgh sick. and i didn't go to the gym. so yeah i'll be fat tomorrow but hopefully not as miserable.
anyway, i did what any normal girl does when she has a shitty day and bought some shoes.
they're alright.
i have this skirt that i've been trying to wear for about a month now, it's a wayne cooper one. the material/texture is great but i just can't wear it with anything. i think it might be the length, it sits below my knees but looks much better as a mini.
i paired it with a black beaded sweater tonight and the three different textured blacks seemed to work okay.
i'm a little hesitant about altering a wayne cooper skirt, i wouldn't want to get on his bad side hahah.
p.s. theo and i had our one month anniversary today. it was also the third day i haven't seen him since we started dating, i better get used to it, he leaves for a week or so next week. some hockey thing.
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oh dear, i hope today is a better day. i think dad is missing you. he keeps saying i haven't heard much from bessie, bessie doesn't ring much,and so on. so he might have got excited about yr email and then not so happy about the content. he does love you heaps, and worries about you a lot.he's very proud of how smart you are too, so don't take what he says too seriously.
the problem with the wayne cooper skirt is that it is evening wear and you want to wear it as an everyday thing. the length (i'm assuming it's a pencil cut) is designed to be worn with high heels to a cocktail party - i would suggest with a top that is cream or maybe black&coffee coloured - made of lace, sheer or some other delicate fabric - long sleeves, hair up in a loose bun. don't cut the skirt - don't you have lots of other clothes to wear without chopping up yr designer wear? u might get a fancy job that has throws lots of upmarket parties, you will be looking for a cocktail dress and all you will have is mini skirts.
don't worry about the usa thing, go later, before you have kids - you could go to spring break, is that miami? you could spend a few days with outrageously drunk and badly behaved american college kids and then head off to do something else.
have a better day today - love you, yr my speshal little baby doll xxxxxxx
congratulations on your one month anniversary - are you going to celebrate?
we're going out for dinner and desert tomorrow night and to the beach (weather pending) on saturday.
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